The Breaking Point

Usually I am someone who finds positive moments in any situation and can always push on. I'm always able to turn it up performance wise when it counts, from as a kid playing sports to a worker. Even as a person when everything was falling down I pushed forward and dominated. Then I learned something, when I violated my probation for faking my AA attendance. No matter how bad you think something is going be or is... you can survive and push on. People couldn't believe I had the ability to lose all of my freedom and reflect and build. I knew I would win the scholarship and change my life for the better.

I've met new people, learned new things but the one constant in my life has stayed the same. 1 or 130 to 930 or exaggerating hell. What do I mean? I mean that no matter who comes and who goes, it's the same thing over and over again. My co workers will take any dudes who are my age or younger and turn the them heel and then me. Suddenly everything we do is wrong and we are all evil. I go through this, every year at this time. I tell myself dude you are only a worker you don't care.. this is a season these people are going through don't let it effect you. I feel like I'm stuck in a dark room every time I punch in, I know there is a light switch but I can't find it.

I've come to realize something today, I cut a half hour off of my work day so that I spend 30 mins of every day on self improvement instead of working. In this time period, I have learned how to make and edit videos.. how to make podcasts how to market them. I have taught myself how to change my life for the better. I know who I want to be, what I want to be. When I'm at work I feel like I am wasting time I could be in the gym or studying. The thing is that I know what I want to do... I know where I want to be in life. I know that for this remaining period of time until I have CPR and first aid certification I have to deal with this.

So this is the point of this point, I am the type of person who writes dates down. Then I achieve the goals connected with that date. What I mean is most things I setup to achieve by a certain date I do. In my head I now have an idea of how I will achieve this and the time frame. For me to gain experience in my dream and move ahead.. I have to start my plan. I will step into part time and then no Meijer status.

There are gonna be people who hate, people who disagree and think I'm an idiot. But do I really want their experiences? Whenever someone comes up with an idea and wants to break away they are hated on. He's gonna ruin his life and give up everything. But honestly.. in order to achieve my dreams... I need to break free and follow my heart